Monday, August 23, 2010
Fantasia's 1st performance after suicide attempt + her thoughts on it
Fantasia said she;s been in the house a week and was ready to act ugly! She performed this past Friday at Charlotte Bobcats player Tyrus Thomas birthday party in North Carolina Friday night.
Check her out performing "Bittersweet"
She also has a behind the music airing tomorrow (her album also drops tomorrow) where she will speak on her suicide attempt.
Here is an excerpt:
Fantasia on how she felt before the attempted suicide:
I didn’t have any fight in me. I didn’t care about anything. I just wanted out. At that moment, I wanted out. I wanted it to be over with – all of it, all of that [expletive]. I just sat in the closet and looked at the mirror and took all the pills in the bottle. I wanted to go to sleep and just be at peace. I knew exactly what I was doing. You can’t accidentally take a whole bottle of pills.”
Fantasia’s Manager Brian talks about how he found her lying on the floor:
“Her emotions were extremely low,” he says. “She’d been crying all day. Fantasia was just numb. Fantasia texted me, saying ‘I love you.’ I wrote back, ‘I love you more.’ Then it hit me.”
“I wrote, ‘You better not do anything or think about doing anything stupid.’ And I left it at that. About 10 minutes later, Fantasia texted me back, and she said, ‘Already did.’ I went into Fantasia’s room and saw her on the floor, and my heart just dropped.”
Fantasia on how she met Antawn:
“When I met him, he was separated … wasn’t living in his home. He didn’t want to be back with his wife – that is what I was told,” Barrino says. “I remember waking up in the hospital [and thinking], ‘It didn’t work, I’m still here in this hellhole. Still here with all this drama going on.’ ”
My nurse Melanie was a blessing into my life because she didn’t tell me what I wanted to hear,” she says. “She told me what I needed to hear. And she looked at me and said, ‘You gotta get up, and you’ve gotta get out of here, ’cause you haven’t fulfilled your destiny.’ ”
“I realized how people end up in the grave. Because that one moment [snaps her fingers] of just breaking or feeling like I can’t, I can’t go on, it’s too heavy. That was somewhere I don’t ever want to go again.”
I love Fantasia and hope she recovers completly after this ordeal is over.. Love makes you do some crazy ish
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